I may not be fit, but at least I'm in shape.

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat, round is a shape, isn't it? 

(;  

Like omg, guys, it's COTTON ON :D

Having such an intense conversation with Adrian. He's funny. lol. I think Adrian is pretty cool, & when I told him that, he was on top of the world. He's really full of himself though. He was talking about how one day he's going to be a changed person, preach in church, in RLC, for the youth group there. & I was like "hahahahahahhaha.no. not gonna happen bro". If Adrian changed thatttt much, I wouldn't like him anymore cos' he wouldn't be cool like he is now. lol I flattered him again by saying that-.- Okay Adrian, watch me, I'm gonna be a bitch to you from now on (; 

I'm in ICT class. :D 

lol Mr.Muru has lotsa work to do so he's allowing us to do whatever we want just for today. but like, half the websites are already blocked. I WANNA GET ON FORMSPRINGGGGG. ish. Ok. I'm gonna google random stuff. 

xx

So from everything that happened, my dad wanted me to list a few things that I learned from it. So here they are:

1) Learn to say NO and walk away.

2) When you're in trouble, no matter how much trouble you're going to get into afterwards, always call your parents to pick you up from where you are to prevent worse things from happening.

3) Being truthful with your parents is the most important thing. If your parents can't trust you, they will never believe you even when you do tell the truth. Lies will make the whole situation ten times worse.

4) In times of trouble, the one person who will stand up for you no matter what is always gonna be your sibling. Even if your best friend betrays you, a brother will always stick up for you.

5) Always look out for your sibling. Even if there are other people you need to look after, family always comes first.

6) When you feel down, it's okay to cry. It's okay to talk to someone about it. It's okay to let your feelings out.

7) Even when you feel alone, always know that you still have God. The world may go against you but he never will.

There are lots more, but I'll just post these for now.

xx

Let the rain wash away all the pain of yesterday ♥

Though life is tough at this very moment for me, it won't stop to let me catch my breath. It keeps moving on.
 It won't wait for me now, or ever.  It just keeps running. Time is never gonna be on my side, that's something I have to realise. & so I need to pick myself back up, and push myself forward. I have a future to look forward to. I can't live my life trying to fix the things in the past that I messed up. So maybe it's okay to forget everything and move on. & for the things I did wrong, I'm pretty sure I learnt from my mistakes, and if I didn't, there shall be consequences later on. & there will be many more mistakes to come, that I'm certain of. But there will also be many more lessons and experiences gained from it all.  I can't live in regret. Oh the sadness it brings, thinking about all the things I've done wrong. I have to stop looking at what I did wrong & start looking at what I did right.  Just like a passing cloud, this whole thing will pass sooner or later. I won't have to think so much about it. & hey, I made mistakes, but on the other hand, I learned a lot from this too.  Maybe it isn't all that bad. Maybe it isn't such a bad thing that I got grounded. Just like Jo said, it'll give me time to think things through, and it'll give me time to heal. Yeah, time never stops to wait for you to heal, but I'm a multi tasker and I can do 2 things at a time. Focus on life, and  heal(; 

xx 

♥

I love my babygirl even though she's the naughtiest thing ever♥

L E A R N . F R O M . M I S T A K E S .

Lessons Learnt:

• Trust no one
• It's okay to be happy in your own little shell
• Other people's opinions don't matter
• Even when no one else seems to be there for you, you still have one person who's always there-God
• Your parents have to be able to trust you
• It's perfectly normal to have haters
• Your destiny is too great to be wasted on other people who won't accept you
• Live through experience, not regret
• It's okay to cry.

You don't have time to convince everybody to like you. Your time is too great to fight battles that don't matter. If someone doesn't praise you, they don't matter. Your destiny is too great to be wasted on other people who won't accept you.

Sometimes you do things you wish you'd never done. Go to places you wish you'd never even heard of. Say words you wish you'd never known. Trusted people you wish you'd never even met. But we only have one life. Live through experience, not regret. ♥

Haven't seen this bottom in 2785939000664782 years. 

& I miss her!

I have soooo much to tell you, Joanna Noelle Ambrose.

xx

I miss Kristina Elle with all my bum :( 

please come back soon<3

Vodka, Sprite, Whiskey, & Liquor with a touch of Gin. (; 

-Ladies, I'm sure you get what I mean. (;  

I want this<3 

Katy Perry's Shatter nail polish. 

Get it for me for my birthday? <3

; I feel so alone. 

The power of alcohol.

The next time you decide you want to drink, think twice. 
Think about the people you're going to cause trouble to if you drink. 
& when I say 'drink', I don't just mean one or two glasses of alcohol. 
I mean getting DRUNK. 
I have learnt never to believe someone when they say they are heavy drinkers and can take lots of alcohol before they actually get wasted.
Because most of the time, they CONVINCE themselves that they aren't light weight and therefore start believing their own lie. 
Then they drink a few shots of pure vodka or tequila, and get so damn bloody drunk, that it gets so hard to control them.
I mean, talking nonsense in your drunken state is totally fine. 
But when you start slapping and punching and running around, it gets a bit too much.
Especially when you nearly run onto the main road, causing your friends to get mini-heart attacks as they have to run after you and stop you.
Because of a mistake you made, your friends have to suffer and get into so much trouble? whoa. Wait a minute, how the hell is that fair? 
Especially when your friend is the one who looked after you when she could have been having a good night herself? 
A tearful apology isn't enough, it takes more than that to show that you won't do it again. 
Don't even   s. p. e. a. k   of alcohol in front of me, because, babe, from what happened that night, you shouldn't be touching alcohol until you reach the legal age to drink. 

& yes, I'm speaking out of experience. If you'd like to know the full story, come and ask me personally.

Welcome to your teenage years. Where you'll be betrayed, stabbed in the back, heartbroken over and over again, fall for people you wish you hadn't, get into fights, have rumors started about you and have many many regrets. But these are the best years of our lives. ♥

2 words for this: 

Gay Faggot. 

(: 

 Because girls go through this. 

Goodbye Christmas, Hello Chinese New Year-.-

They took down the Christmas tree:(
Another whole 11 months till Christmas is here again.
All the Christmas decorations in shopping malls have been torn down, no more Christmas carols being played like, everywhere. No more Christmas carols stuck in your head and annoying the crap outta you. Instead, it's Chinese New Year songs-.-
And mind you, Chinese New Year is still a MONTH away and everyone is already playing ching chong fan songs everywhere. No offence to my amazing yellow friends, but you gotta admit, the songs tend to get a little annoying after a while.
Best part is, in Singapore, our schools use to make us LEARN the lyrics of these Chinese new year songs, so every time I hear one of the songs in a mall, I find myself SINGING ALONG.
Like how sad is my life, really?

We are young.

It's a Friday and I've been waiting for this day all week, but now I'm just so bloody tired to do anything. I wanted to stay up and watch a movie or read a book or something but believe it or not, I'm gonna head off to bed in about 10 to 15 minutes. I honestly feel like I'm become more boring by the day. It's like, all I do when I get home is study, and get on Facebook. Then sleep.
What ever happened to being a teenager? Sleeping in the wee hours of morning and waking up at night. Stuffing my face with junk food. Not giving a shit about homework. Getting wasted every week. Partying even more than I can take. Skipping classes. Flirting with every guy in sight. Playing football in a theatre(yea I do that).. Sigh.
But in my defense, I need people like Anna to get wild with. I only get all wild and retarded with people I'm close to. Next Friday is gonna be fun with all my bytches(;

You're only a teenager once, so I suppose it's alright to act like one. 

AHAHHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA.

My dearest Vivek thinks I'm annoying <3

hahhahahaha. 

and he also thinks I'm a rotten apple.

HAHAHAHA (y)

oh how I love that boy. 

; ♥

Make love not war.

Why hate on the world so much?

I hope you know that I reallllyyyyy dgaf that you hate me with all your heart. <3

But why hate the rest of the world without a reason? 

What do you get from hating on everyone? 

What did people do to you to make you despise them so much? 

I would love, I repeat, l.o.v.e to help you realise that loathing everyone isn't gonna help you make friends.

After all, you only have a few, of which... you also hate. -.-

If you just learnt to hate a little less and love a little more, you wouldn't be so alone. You would have people there for you when you need them.
You would actually have real friends for once. 

But you know, once again, Idgaf how much you hate me. Because honestly, I like having haters.
I am not trying, and I certainly won't try to make you love me.

xx

Schule. Studie. Schule. Studie. Schule. Studie...

Ich bin so verdammt müde nach der Schule heute, und es ist erst der zweite Tag in der Schule? HAHA. Gott rette mich. Nur ein weiterer und ein halbes Jahr zu gehen... Ich kann dies tun! 

x

When I look around me & see people's relationships so damn complicated, I feel glad that I decided to remain single. Why cause more drama for yourself? The stress it brings.. ish. As much as I like drama going on in my life, I can't stand EMOTIONAL drama. It's just really annoying.

x

New Years Resolution

2011 is gonna be my year babeeyy.

1) Finish homework on time with effort and quality
2) Start improving on photography & start learning good techniques with the DSLR.
3) Lose 5kg's. 
4) Put in solid hours everyday for studying.
5) Learn basic German and start practicing it. 
6) Try to take Patches for more walks.
7) Speak better Malay!
8) Make more friends in church (; (y)
9) Stop talking so much.
10)Stop being so nice to everyone. 

Ok I meant every single thing in this New Years Resolution. I shall achieve it <3
xx
ihre mutter

Bring it on, 2011.

I LIKE MY NEW FB PROFILE (y) 
Omg first day of school.. sigh.
I woke up this morning feeling so depressed. I literally had to DRAG myself out of bed because I was really dreading school today. Back to school, wearing that blutig uniform, having to tie up my hair everyday, having to not wear any make up.. gosh. the despair of it all.
Anywaysssssssss, got back to school, saw everyone I haven't seen in a month, told Anna what I needed to tell her so urgently, and then surprise surprise, I actually concentrated in most of my classes today. (y) 
What a good way to start the term. I'm proud of myself.
Let's just hope I can keep this attitude throughout the year. No more getting C's for Chemistry. Time to buck up just like I promised myself I would. 
Also, this year, I am actually going to try to stick to my New Years Resolution which I shall post next. 
Ooooohhh, I got a feeling that 2011's gonna be a gooooood year. 

"Well, that's your opinion, isn't it? And I'm not about to waste my time trying to change it."

I find it so interesting to hear people's comments about me.

I mean honestly, some of them are just so hilarious.

I don't mind people talking bullsh about me at all.

I mean,  I think its better to have people talking about you negatively then not talking about you at all.

I like the fact that I irritate people and that gets on their nerves.

I've obviously had an impact on them which made them talk negative about me.

Maybe it's because I have something they don't and that bugs them like crap?

Deal with it. 

It's alright to have haters. 

Because if you're not hated, you're doing something wrong. 

Ich liebe dich

Learning German online(;

Will be starting classes soon. Can't wait. 

Going to Germany to study Med sounds too cool. 

First I thought Russia would be a better idea, but on second thought, Germany sounds better. 

All I need to do is learn basic German, and I can get free education. 

And heck, I would love to speak another language other than English. 

I have friends who can speak German so that'll help abit.

If I DO go to Germany, I decided I wanna go to Munich. Cos' Hamburg is too cold:| 

I shall marry a German boy and have German speaking kids(; 

ich liebe dich 

xx

01/01/11 ♥

My handwriting has become HORRIBLE because I haven't written anything for a month. hallelujah.